I've said before that after having my little girl I felt my life had slipped away from me and I no longer knew where I belonged but was rather wearing "I'm a mum" sign on my forehead everyday. Don't get me wrong my daughter is my world but every now and then you need to give time to yourself. Blogging has given me that satisfaction of being something else too. So when I was asked to work with Shopcade at fashion week. I knew it was an opportunity I couldn't miss. Not only would this be my first singleton venture out since my daughter was born (22 months ago) but also my first event and first time leaving the little one in the capable hands of another human being for more than two hours. These feelings inside where making a small tornado in my stomach and I'm sure if someone would of thrown me a bucket I would of vomited.
Through all this were the usual womanly anxieties. What will I wear? Will I fit in? Will I make a tit of myself? At one point I thought I was going to pull out of the whole thing and I'm quite certain if I wasn't so against screwing people over I would of done. I knew I needed to hold my head high be proud of who I was, where I had got too and let the strength take over.
The first day didn't quite follow this plan I felt withdrawn and shy a trait I don't usually own. However once the evening came and I had thrown back a few glasses of liquor I felt more at ease and it dawned on me what a fool I had been for the entire day. Second day came and went. A lot more successfully than the first. I socialised with people, joined in more with the photography and interviews, overall just a more out going person. I felt my confidence growing the more conversations I held about explanations I gave about what I do and what Shopcade is.
I think we all should remember in life that you need to walk through life being proud. We are all individuals with different looks, personality's and hobbies. Be the best you can be and grasp every opportunity. Those deep dark fears you have actually only a milli chance of becoming true.
Trying to be insightful